YOU ARE NAMELESS
October 23, 2012
(Artwork by Tony Santana)
You come from the Nameless, and return to the Nameless, and are in the Nameless while you read this. How does one go about seeing this for their self You can start by imagining a baby, When it is born … it has no name, no matter what name you put on it, that is not how it was born. It/you were born nameless because where you came from has no name. However, people identify strongly with their name because they are programmed since birth to believe that it has something to do with who they are. But a name doesn't make a person something, a name is just a way of separating you from everyone else.
Didn't ever really like my name, when I was 13 - changed it to Daki, which you see in the Graffiti above. Went by that name for a brief while, it helped to see something; something that hadn't been seen before it was changed. That the assumption had been that "I" was "Joy." Thought I was the name and that name had stories and experiences attached to it - that weren't wanted, there was a lot of pressure with a name like "joy" that has such meaning in this world; to be happy or joyful, which often neither of those things were the case while growing up.
Went back to the name Joy and although there was still resistance to it for many years following, it has been a bringer of the deepening in knowing/Realizing that one is not their name. The resistance to it showed led deeper and deeper into the questioning of it … since "I" wasn't "Joy(full)" "I" could not be "Joy" or if "I" am not my name … then who am I?
Then myTeacher entered my life and after a few years he gave me the name "Joysters." Loved/love this name … at first it was like whole new being. "I" was going to create the "Joysters." Once again overlooking "Who am I?" Who is the "I" that will create "Joysters?" Instead there was an identifying with the new name of "Joysters" and the story about "Joysters" in the world, and what she was doing and learning and so what ended up happening - was just another version of "Joy" sure it was a happier "Joy" an alternative to the Joy that had been unhappy, but it was just the opposite of the same coin. Since usually you don't see what you are in, when you are in it and luckily myTeacher is always aware of what the "I" is up to; he helped point what had been done, by stripping the name away .... he stopped calling me Joysters.
Went through a long period of sadness - had become attached to that name "Joysters" and all the wonderful things that wereI enjoyed under that name. But this sadness brought another gift to the door, although it did take quite some time of resisting losing this name, once the resistance was gone, it began to be revealed that I am Nameless, in fact there is no "I" to name.
I am what comes before all names. Just like you.
This gift was/is so lovingly given, even though it was fought tooth and nail to keep what wasn't real, it was still Given and that is what this writing is; the opportunity to give what was/is given freely. That you have the ability to Know yourSelf … not as a name, not as a body, but what the name and body appear in.
You are Nameless always and forever.