June 12, 2012
What is coming up right now is that one does not have control over anything...though it seems that one does...one does not. One of the first things that was revealed to me by my Teacher is that your hands are not your hands...it is twelve years later and this is only beginning to dawn as a reality.
When does it dawn...usually around the same time that there is a concern that one "can do" something. This has been a gift in the dawning of "there is no you." When there is a depression or a desire for something to be some other way than how it is...there is a deeper pushing to look and see "who?" Who wants things to be some other way? As this becomes more obvious that there is no one to make anything any other way...then there is a relaxing into what is.
When things are going the way the "you" would want them to ...then there is no push to look and see and one can "think" that they are now in charge. But when there is anger and frustration and desire to change things...that is when one will look. That is when one must look inside to see if they exist. As you look...something is revealed to you.
This whole life for me has been a running to or a running away from what is actually happening. However, recently, there is just a being in it...which is how it has always been anyway...however this being in it...dissolves the identity. When you see ... Know ... that the hands attached to the body are not your hands and that the body is not yours either...you will begin to question...to whom do these hands this body belong. In this investigation...which maybe quick or maybe long...however in this investigation ... you will begin to see Emptiness and you may say at this time "who sees Emptiness or how can one see Emptiness (it sounds like a contradiction)" however you must investigate to See.
These hands can type to you that it is possible...however they cannot show it too you...you must look...you must ask and you must wait.