October 18, 2012
Received a card from a very good Friend quite a few years ago that said … “you have no morals.” It was meant in a joking and light-hearted way however, how it cut so deep that at the time - it actually seemed to lead being hospitalized. It was a deep, deep cleansing as most things that cut that way are … and such a long strange circular trip to where one is now.
Still have no morals (heh!) … the shock back then was that I didn’t know I didn’t have any and I thought I wanted them. Now … I know I don’t have any and don’t require them; because I never had any before; why add something you didn't ever need to be who you are and here I am.
It came up today … with MyTeacher – it seems he is saying that I just use people … take everything until I don’t need anything and then move on.
I can see that. I can see it that way. But also I see that some people are still in my life since I was 13 years old … we are still communicating … the doors are not closed though the relationships have changed. If I had morals I would not ever have known most of the people that I know … because it took “no morals” to allow them "in," at the times that they appeared.
No one actually has any morals, but they make lines in the sand they say they won't cross and yet most cross them and then are devastated that they broke the line they drew in the first place and said "don't cross." Just don't draw the line … watch how life is lived by not telling it how to be.
No morals led me to mySelf. :o)
Morals keep one from knowing who they are. Nothing can actually keep one from knowing who they are. <-- Paradox. :o) However, morals (or the concept of them) can hide who One is rather well. Underneath all those rules and regulations of how to live in the world … under there … is you. :o)
Don’t ask me … ask yourSelf. <-- Tripy!