Most of the greatest Gifts one receives in life … are Paradoxes. One cannot, in a sense, use the mind to understand paradoxes and one cannot use the mind to understand who one IS (that is a Paradox right there.)
If you cannot use the mind to understand who you are; what can you use?
You begin to allow Paradoxes to remain unanswered, until they are answered. Just allow them to show up and wait to have it revealed. Over time, it will come, and you will see that you would not have been able to use the mind to understand the answer; yet the mind is used to point towards the answer.