When you don't understand what is happening or why or how things can be, use it as the opportunity to once again question, to "who" do these things come. And when the thought appears that says "to me" ask who "me" is. Let the question "who?" begin to replace all the how's and why's and what's and where's. As it does, the "you" that you "think" you are, will begin to become much lighter. And instead of figuring out how, why, what and where ... you will begin to see what shows up.