A Guided Meditation
Find a quiet space...where you can sit comfortably. Close your eyes and take three deep cleansing breaths...as you breath in ... imagine a bright light coming in through your nose...through your head and down your chest and as you breath out your mouth...relax your jaw and see this bright light coming out.
Do this three times.
Now with eyes closed...imagine you are Jesus (whatever you picture that word "Jesus" to mean to you or use the image below). Imagine that you are him and that you are being laid down on two pieces of wood with your hands spread apart and your feet entwined together. Now imagine that you know that the person that is about to put the nails into your hands and attach you to the wood...is you (you do not have to understand it just allow your imagination to do it).
You are looking at this person...knowing it is yourself and that they are about to pierce your hands and there is no way to tell them who you are ... there are no words you can use to relay to that person that they are piercing their own skin through yours.
He does not know that he is doing it to himself. He thinks/believes that you ... as Jesus ... are separate from him ... and you, as Jesus ... know that even though he thinks this ... it does not make it so.
You feel a wave of compassion wash over you. You look at him and know that he doesn't know what he is about to do. It comes to you the Truth of the statement when you say "Forgive him Father for he knows not what he does." He does not know that when I say "I and the Father are One ... that he can say the same."
Feel your Heart being broken and don't try to fix it.
Now imagine that you are the person putting the nails into Jesus' hands. You have been told that he is a trouble maker ... that he says blasphemous things ... makes lofty assumptions ... that he is attempting to lead people away from the Roman Church ... that he is a King of the Jews and claims to be the Messiah, even dares to say he is One with God.
You are afraid ... allow yourself to feel afraid of this person that goes against everything you believe ... who threatens the foundation of your beliefs ... your family ... your life ... feel that wanting to protect yourself from this man ... this man could take away all the things you hold dear and treasure ... in this world.
The things he says ... like he is the son of God ... or the Kingdom of God is Within ... are too big for you to understand ... they are scary and you just want him to go away and stop saying the things he continues to say. Your fear makes you angry and you don't like how he looks at you so lovingly and compassionate ... it feels like mockery ... it is like spitting in your face ... that he is so calm.
You hammer the nail in ... and he screams and you say "who is the son of God now ... where is your God now." In your rage you cannot see that what is in you ... is the same that is in Him. You are blind ... blind.
Now step back. How does one help a blind man See?
Is there enough space to see that the whole picture is You. If that is too far a stretch for the imagination ... imagine how it was for Jesus 2000 years ago. Things have not changed very much ... it seems people still do not wish to hear the Good News.
So begin if you will ... to just entertain the idea ... that you are the blind one and you are the one that Sees. And if you are both ... then both are in You.
What is there to forgive? Knowing you are Jesus ... you know that you are putting your own nails into your own hands ... do you need to forgive yourself for not knowing? And knowing you are the crucifier ... do you forgive yourself for not Seeing who you are and what you do ... for being blind?
This is a very personal endeavor and one that can help to create great healing in you.
The concept "forgiveness" is for the one that has yet to see that he/she is Crucifying their self.
Be kind to yourself. You are not who you "think" you are. Thank God. :o)