November 2, 1998
Monday
Why is it that many find themselves satisfied with not knowing more about existence than the little that they know…why do they not question reality such as I do?
They fear not being answered. They are afraid to go within because they do not want to face the Truth…they hide about themselves ~ yet remember that you could not see this in them were you not experiencing the same as them. Their fear is no different than your own.
How do I make my dreams come true?
By not seeing it as a dream…by living every single moment as you wish.
Why do I get lost?
You are not lost…never were..you Are! That’s all there is! You are what you choose to be each instant…you are light … always have been always will be…yet how often do you choose to show who you Are?
If I am God as you say, then why am I afraid of Being God … why don’t I just be what I Am?
Good question…why don’t you?
Ugh! Ugh! Ugh! Stop making it seem so fucking simple!
Angry eh?
Yes…I am angry!
At what?
At You!
Which is what?
mySelf.
Why are you angry at yourself?
Because I am not being You/Me/Whoever!
And now your sad?
I don’t know what I am!
You know, you Know.
Help me…..please.
You need no help. Nothing will ever change the Truth about you. NO matter what illusion you create…anger you think you feel…sadness that makes you cry…nothing will ever change who you are. You picked this illusion … you wanted to know pain…you wanted to know sickness…you wanted to know what it is like to find your way back to who you are through this illusion…you knew you would succeed…you wanted to feel pain because it reminds you of pure pleasure … it allows you to know what pleasure is. You choose to stay low to know your height. You are all things.
So you are saying I choose imperfection to know perfection?
I am saying you are perfection. I’m saying you are perfection and cannot change that…and that is your struggle…you struggle to be what you are not to know what you are.
Ok then…when will I know?
When you choose to Know.
I hate this circular shit.
Yeah right … you love it!
Ok I do.
Just enjoy yourself no matter where you are at…if you are miserable than enjoy your misery. If you are happy enjoy our happiness. Just enjoy this experience…that is why you are here. Share that with others to share it with yourself.
